Dear Evy:

promising to live a happy and simpler life in honor of my evelyn

Hello Sweet Girl. I’ve been on a month hiatus from writing. Between surviving Christmas, starting a new year without you, our work catching on fire and just not feeling well, it’s been hard to find the right words to say. But I just came back from a work trip in Florida and all I did was talk about you.

It was wonderful. I met so many new people. No one knew my story or that you were no longer here with me. People would ask if I had any kids and I was able to answer that I had two beautiful girls. Some I told the whole story, and some I did not. They of course would ask for your ages and I would say one will be four in March and my other will forever be 10 months.

Most just thought I didn’t want you to grow up when I would say forever 10 months. That I just wanted you to stay my little baby. If only they knew that I would give anything to watch you grow up. I don’t care if life moved so fast that it seemed like you grew up in the blink of an eye. I just wish you had the chance.

Others I told that you had became an Angel at 10 months. It just depended on the person. I told them about your rare infectious disease that took your little life and how it still baffles me, but that was always the short part of the story. I loved to tell people who you were and what made me laugh and stories that I remember so well.

It was just wonderful to talk about my two girls. I am so blessed to have had you in my life. While Ava is our rock and keeps us going, you Evelyn, make me strive to be a better person. Love and hugs.

3 thoughts on “Dear Evy: Talking about you

  1. Very beautiful Beth…your story makes me want to be a better person! The strength that you showed at the visitation and your continued strength that you show now is amazing! Thoughts and prayers for you and Adam always!!!!


  2. Pat Wright says:

    What a beautiful way to share your life. She is and will always be in your heart!

  3. Sheree says:

    Oh, my dear sister in faith, thank you for sharing this post. I have missed your posts and been praying for you. It made my day to see you post again. Have a blessed Monday.

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