Dear Evy:

promising to live a happy and simpler life in honor of my evelyn

Hello Sweet Girl. I’ve been on a month hiatus from writing. Between surviving Christmas, starting a new year without you, our work catching on fire and just not feeling well, it’s been hard to find the right words to say. But I just came back from a work trip in Florida and all I did was talk about you.

It was wonderful. I met so many new people. No one knew my story or that you were no longer here with me. People would ask if I had any kids and I was able to answer that I had two beautiful girls. Some I told the whole story, and some I did not. They of course would ask for your ages and I would say one will be four in March and my other will forever be 10 months.

Most just thought I didn’t want you to grow up when I would say forever 10 months. That I just wanted you to stay my little baby. If only they knew that I would give anything to watch you grow up. I don’t care if life moved so fast that it seemed like you grew up in the blink of an eye. I just wish you had the chance.

Others I told that you had became an Angel at 10 months. It just depended on the person. I told them about your rare infectious disease that took your little life and how it still baffles me, but that was always the short part of the story. I loved to tell people who you were and what made me laugh and stories that I remember so well.

It was just wonderful to talk about my two girls. I am so blessed to have had you in my life. While Ava is our rock and keeps us going, you Evelyn, make me strive to be a better person. Love and hugs.

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3 thoughts on “Dear Evy: Talking about you

  1. Very beautiful Beth…your story makes me want to be a better person! The strength that you showed at the visitation and your continued strength that you show now is amazing! Thoughts and prayers for you and Adam always!!!!

    Rhonda<3

  2. Pat Wright says:

    What a beautiful way to share your life. She is and will always be in your heart!

  3. Sheree says:

    Oh, my dear sister in faith, thank you for sharing this post. I have missed your posts and been praying for you. It made my day to see you post again. Have a blessed Monday.

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