So they say everything happens for a reason. One of my friends posted that on facebook after you passed. She hated that saying and has dealt with tragedy in her life and couldn’t understand how a baby dying could happen for a “reason.” It is a poor saying. It is cold and empty. The saying just doesn’t have any heart behind it. But we are focusing on the wrong part. Instead of what is the reason for your death, we need to focus on the reason for your life. I know it sounds similar, but it’s not the same. You were put on this earth for a reason: To give me joy, to understand a deeper love than I could ever know, to bring me closer to God, to make me cherish every moment, to take my life in a new direction. In a happy and simple direction.
Would I rather you have not been born if I knew that you were going to die in a short 10 months? To save me from my heartache and sorrow? Absolutely not. You gave me so much love and sweet sweet kisses and cuddles. I would never trade those 10 months of pure love even if I knew the outcome. Your life had a reason.
God has a plan. That is another saying I have heard a lot. But his plan is not to cause hurt and sorrow. God has shown me love. God is love. He gave us you Evelyn. God too lost a child. He gave us Jesus. Jesus unjustly died, was beaten and crucified. Jesus was sent to us for a reason and he too has changed the way people live their lives. Maybe it’s wrong to compare you to Jesus, but you too are a child of God and working your own little miracles.
Evelyn, I know you have big plans for us. I said those exact words over and over at your visitation. You have big plans for us. We don’t know all of it yet, but you and God will continue to show us and guide us. As long as I can feel you near and picture you at the feet of Jesus, then I will be patiently waiting for your plan to unveil itself.